A Baring Absence of Love

I’m not absent of feeling, I am absent of the want to feel because all you ever make me feel is pain and everyone sees it. A Baring Absence of Love… I want to see you bare, exposed, and naked as I have been; a show of love or at least I won’t be fooled.~A Baring Absence of Love~

Take Me... Well

What are things I wanted you to say to me, back when I had more balls than brains; and all of me was dreaming. Take Me… Well; where is that lovers go… I wouldn’t know the first thing except that I wanted you to be my… well does it even matter anymore?~Take Me... Well~

Just A Teddy On The Floor

I sat there, I let you, and I would do so again, be your toy fall in love with you again… as if I ever stopped. Just A Teddy On The Floor… my gift, I’m waiting for you but if I remember we never ever played before Sweetness, didn’t need me then or now.~Just A Teddy On The Floor~

Sea of Electrons, An Air

No web cams, not streaming and it wasn’t even the day to day… for you but I treated this love as if you were right here with me. Sea of Electrons, An Air… I wonder how you were that day for me, it was as if I couldn’t breathe, no air, no air.~Sea of Electrons, An Air~

Checkered Past

My background, my past, and the present; everyone wonders why I have no future or they don’t care to wonder. Checkered Past… does it matter black or white, in living color; what I am is what I am and that is exactly what you don’t want ever.~Checkered Past~

Drowning In Because

Reasons, Excuses, and because; telling me why you don’t love me is as easy breathing and that is something that is getting harder and harder for me to do. Drowning In Because… my head is barely above water, my fault for still hearing anything.~Drowning In Because~

Sea of Electrons, An Air

An air of pretty, was sheDressed up, done upMaybe in her pajamasHer beauty wasn’t for meNeither was her loveI was so dumbCan’t breatheAn air of music, did she sing?Her siren’s songA love gone wrongWhat she said to meBe goneIt wasn’t so longCan’t breatheAn air of feeling, where her fingers ledHow I dreamed up her thighsA keyboard saying, I wasn’t her guyAs if I was a monster like FredWhy didn’t I

Checkered Past

Jumped and thumpedBumped and dumpedAcross this board called lifeWhy must I fightA game I don’t want to playAnywayBut here I am todayWith dreams to be kingIsn’t that the thingA dream to winI do but sinAnd am made falseAt such costWaiting for that final lossChecked again and againWhere do I beginTo leave such a predicamentConfidence?When I am surroundedAstoundedYet boundedTo head to the other

Lesson 119 ~Drowning In Because~

Saturday, August 21, 2011Hey Lady Lu...Maybe I should be more concerned with my upcoming suicide… didn’t work before so I have serious doubts about this time; so many excuses, so many past lives. When I started to think about the past seems the only regrets I have are about love, sex, and girls… one particular girl, Chrissy.Luna you know I don’t want to die; it just seems the easiest solution

Drowning In Because

A pool too deepAngels flyBut where will your feetLieI’m drowning becauseIt’s you I seekDrowning because of usA lake too coldYou are my light, so warmBut you I could never holdIf I were never bornI’m drowning becauseYou, I’ll never knowDrowning because of usA river too dirtyCorrupted, violated, muddyYou were naughty and flirtyAnd I wanted lusty and sluttyI’m drowning becauseI was so nerdyDrowning

A Baring Absence of Love

To see it allAs I lieCryAnd wonder whyYou won’t fallAcross greenest grassMoney and powerSunlit hoursColorful flowersDirty without classMuddy and uglyHug and snugglyWill you still love me?Or will you passBaring no loveAcross rivers runTears and fearsCheers and jeersAll the yearsWaters and sunOld and newWill you be true?Bare and nudeOr won’t be the oneBaring no loveAcross blowing windsRumors and